Oh gosh! She's So Random!... Am I? ^^

So I feel like writing another blog entry today…I’m so bored and my boredom is killing me. So for me to save my life from this boredom (laughing) I decided to make a blog entry.... I’m a “random” person (love me or hate me for being random…I don’t care???…LOL)… Random thoughts + me = Best of friends....Yay~~... I'm way too cheesy here....^^

So now I'll start my "random" list:

I'm AFRAID of :

• open/deep sea water... (I'd rather go bungee jumping than scuba diving!
• afraid of elevator doors ...
• afraid of big butterflies ....
• I hate the rain....

 I WANT to :

• I love green sooooooo much....
• I want a Danbo toy.... so cute....^^
• fly wish balloons (with "wish letters")...
• fly a kite with different colors...
• go picnic... ^^
• volunteer for Home for the Aged or for The World Food Program....
• go to Vatican...
• go mountain climbing...
• go to Hong kong Disneyland...
• see the Namsan Tower in Korea...^^
• take lots of pictures in different places all over the world....
• see fireflies and falling star/meteor shower.... (the last time I saw this two was when I was in grade school)
• try my luck and win lottery...bwahahaha....impossible.....hehe
• I want to eat beef broccoli...nom....nom...(I miss eating this yummy food)
• eat yummy ice cream cake...( gonna buy one one of this days...just wait...haha) ^^
• meet Mitch Albom and Paulo Coelho (my fav. authors)
• buy a Polaroid camera and SLR  (Gawd...I'm dying for this 2 cameras)
• see a penguin...cutie...^^
• see snow!!!
• play the  PIANO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (desperately wanting to learn to play the piano) or someone to play the piano for me...isn't that sweet?...haha^^
• see SuJu....  OMO! I'm a fan girl...haha
• play bowling again....
• study abroad (I'm gonna achieve this....just wait!!!)
• wanting a cute bear t-shirt...

Too much of my cheesiness or random thoughts I guess....Isn't it fun being random (sometimes...lol)^^

The Sweetest Goodbye

I was so bored and couldn't do anything (aside from surfing the "information super highway" or the internet of course...).... So I decided to browse and delete some files on my laptop then I saw a  "letter" I wrote I guess months ago... The letter made me LOL yet warmed my heart, I wrote this letter for someone I loved...Yeah, my first love (but never my bf)...Yay~~ so cheesy I know....haha...(you want to kill me now for being cheesy or you want me to teach you how to be cheesy?! I'm good at it...^^) But yeah, I wrote this letter for him saying my sweetest goodbye... I wasn't able to tell him everything I wanted to say because there was no formal parting and besides everytime I try the words just don't come out right... So now that I've "recovered" already, moved on maybe (after long years), I'm letting this letter be known to everyone... This is my sweetest goodbye... ^^

"I know we can never be together for we belong in two different worlds...I know that you'll never know how much I love you 'coz you don't feel the same way as I do...God only knows how much this heart loves you and maybe one day just maybe, God will reveal everything to you...But since I know that we can never be together...That we're not written on the same star I know the need to let you go...
We belong in different worlds, worlds that can never collide...Worlds that can never touch each other but the only thing that can be done is to just gaze at each other...But gazing at you even just for once in my life is more than enough...I was able to look into your eyes and there I saw a reflection of my own love for you though not reciprocated I know...By that I know I have loved and that is enough for me...

I am happy though 'coz I know once in this lifetime two different worlds gazed even just for once...I wasn't able to tell you this straight and proud but for the first and last time I want you to know that I loved you and to tell you my sweet good bye...
Life will continue for the both of us and we will love again separately, this time we will love someone coming from our own worlds...Love her, respect her, give her everything and anything she wants and need...Never make her cry but if you do make sure that you'll bring her tears of happiness...Tell her how much you love her, cook for her, bring her flowers, eat with her, sing for her, believe her, make her happy, brighten up her day...When she feels down or sick comfort her and take care of her...Love her and treasure her...Don't bring tears in her eyes like you did to me...Don't break her heart...That's all I'm asking you...And don't worry 'bout me for I'm still hopeful...I know one day I'll find my match made in heaven."...

"I wish you well...I wish you true happiness...I wish you true love!"

Sometimes I wonder, how can goodbye be sweet?....I don't really know the answer but maybe a goodbye can be so sweet when you learn to accept that nothing is permanent, that in this life we really have to let go of  the people we love... That no matter how tight we want to hold them in our arms the time will come that we have to set them free and let them go...We may not be able to hold them in our arms ever again or forever but one thing is for sure if we really love them we will always hold them in our hearts and that is the safest place where they can never escape... Isn't that a sweet goodbye?...LOL ^^

Apple Cheeks^^...So...So I'm new...^^

So, I'm so new to this thing. I'm still trying to familiarize myself here, trying to learn new things. I've never been good when it comes to trying new things, I guess that suggest that I'm not an audacious girl. Sensing lack of self-esteem here? Yeah maybe, but I'm trying my very best to gain it back (yes, there's a story behind it). And maybe by trying new things like this one, blogging, I'll be able to regain it and share what I got. ^^